My birthday approached this year
in 2014, while two weeks before while at an ashram, got a strong desire to meet
Amma and Baba, two great Avdhoots in Kerala, assessable to general public but
hidden under the disguise of illusory conditions. I had met them before twice during my
Kanhangad visits. This birthday, as many other, thus I desired to be in the lap
of Bhagwan Nityananda in Kanhangad for it were by His grace I was reborn 5
years back. A quick call to three
friends confirmed that they were also free and soon we found ourselves in
Kanhangad on a day in February.
Raja Rajeshwara Temple at Taliparamba, Kerala |
The first day we spent at the
holy caves in Kanhangad ashram and immersing ourselves in just ‘being’ in this
divine place, frequenting between the caves, the Samadhi temple, and our rooms. We divided our three-day visit – first day,
in Kanhangad ashram and the 43 caves. Second day meeting the Avdhoots Amma and
Baba. Third day – with Swami Vidyananda in Guruvan at Bade Baba’s holy cave and
temple. The first day pleasantly passed
and next day got up early as we had booked a taxi to travel to Talacheri and
Quilandy where Amma and Baba lived amongst the people, heavily mistaken to be
as ‘crazy’. We had to cover about 225 kms one side and hence, left Kanhangad
ashram at 5:30 a.m. as planned. We halted
briefly at Raja Rajeshwara temple at Taliparamba, which is a powerful
Shaktipeetha, which is believed to be the place where Maa Sati’s head fell.
This temple had a jyotirlingam that disappeared into the ground and also is
known to be the place where Parushram frequented and also which held the ashram
of Sage Agastya. Since the temple was not open yet, we just were there in the
vicinity of this place for sometime and we then proceeded further. After
stopping for breakfast in Kannur, we proceeded straight to Quilandy with a few
bags of rice and also few other ingredients to be given to the locations we
wanted to go. Agarbathi packs were often
what we carried to Achar Baba.
Amma on the streets |
Amma lives in a house in
Talacheri and is often found wandering on the streets absorbed in divine bliss
at all times. She does not speak, and if she does it is not easily
understandable. She gives darshan only if she wishes, by being present in the
home or by ‘being seen’ anywhere outside, otherwise it is not possible to meet
her. This time, we just prayed, we get
to see her. This time’s visit was a little special because all of a sudden
while meditating one night, I had got her ‘call’ and without any hesitation had
booked off the tickets to Kanhangad, being happy that it coincided with my
birthday plans. Suddenly, we spotted her
standing at a cross road just before reaching the place she stayed. Halting the
taxi abruptly we jumped out and went and fell at her feet, while she looked at
each as though one’s eyes tries to look deeply into identifying a person’s face
after coming from bright light into darkness.
Just as all finished touching her feet, she walked off and moved around
in that place for a while. We stood
there for sometime and when we saw that she was keen on being there, we decided
that we walk to her place and sit in meditation. If it was her wish, she would
come there, as it had happened twice earlier.
But then, just as we began walking on one side of the road, we noticed
that she also began walking on the other side of the road towards her place of
stay. I was overjoyed on knowing that Amma was moving towards her home which
was a great sign of her acceptance of giving us ‘time.’ She walked, we followed
her footsteps. After reaching the gate, she turned around and looked and I
acknowledged her love by stopping and shyly putting my head down. She then
walked into the home and we followed. She went and laid down on the floor in
the verandah, which was her place of rest. This is where she had given us
‘time’ the last two times, in the same way! We, without wasting any time,
touched her feet and closed our eyes in meditation. Tears of joy flowed in me
by understanding her love that she gave through this simple yet divine act. How
foolishly people misunderstand the play of great souls!
Amma's collection of dolls under the sheet. Above on the wall is Siddha Surya Narayan ji's photo |
There was silence for long. I
felt her getting up and when opened my eyes, she was getting up and going
inside the home. But we continued just being immersed there. After about 15 minutes we all sat with our
eyes open, noone wanting to speak anything and disturb that silence. I thought she had gone, but she came out from
inside, looked at us and went out. Then she came in, looked at us and went in.
Then she looked at us and circumambulated the house, sometimes smiling and
sometimes mumbling something, no
ne of which our limited minds could decipher We just sat there talking to ourselves. Then, Amma who must be in her 80’s walked out in her one piece of saree that she wore, seemingly to just cover herself to public modesty. However, at times she was seen to be without it. When she went out, we went into her room inside which was full of toys and few pieces of cloths that she often kept arranging in different sequences. Out of the six states of an Avadhoot, is this state of Bal Avastha or the state of a child where the Avadhoot becomes childlike in complete innocence and unaware of his/her body and surroundings and devoid of any logic intelligence. This state was obvious by looking at the many number of dolls that lay in this room.
ne of which our limited minds could decipher We just sat there talking to ourselves. Then, Amma who must be in her 80’s walked out in her one piece of saree that she wore, seemingly to just cover herself to public modesty. However, at times she was seen to be without it. When she went out, we went into her room inside which was full of toys and few pieces of cloths that she often kept arranging in different sequences. Out of the six states of an Avadhoot, is this state of Bal Avastha or the state of a child where the Avadhoot becomes childlike in complete innocence and unaware of his/her body and surroundings and devoid of any logic intelligence. This state was obvious by looking at the many number of dolls that lay in this room.
We quietly left the place and
when we were out on the road, two foreigners were asking about Amma’s
whereabouts at the gate. I spoke with
the girl for a few minutes whose eyes were impatiently hunting Amma. I
suggested that she just sit in the house and meditate and if she wishes she
will surely come, to which she happily told me that she comes once in six
months there and she was living for long in Kerala, to which I understood that
aspirants like these do not need any suggestions from anyone as they were
already connected by higher powers that guided them. At that time, someone told me in Malayalam
that Amma was seen sitting in an auto and going somewhere, which I translated
to the girl. She did not seem to loose hope and bidding goodbye she walked away
into the streets. We then got into the taxi and decided to go to Surya
Narayanji’s Jeeva Samadhi at a little distance from here. He was a great Saint
who lived in the house in which Amma now stays. Before leaving this home he had
predicted that a great Avdhoot would come in this house. He later left his body
a few kilometers from here. To read how
we were last time mystically guided to His Jeeva Samadhi 3 years ago, click here.
Siddha Surya Narayan |
We always visit this Samadhi on our way
back after visiting Achar Baba, but this time somehow we decided to go here now
itself. As we drove to the place, I spotted at a distance the foreigner
frantically moving on the search, her eyes very obviously searching Amma. The
man who was with her spotted us in the car and waved. We stopped. He came and said
that they were waiting in that spot as they heard that Amma would pass from
there. He then asked if we were going to Quilandy (Achar) Baba, which
essentially indicated that they knew him too. We bid goodbye and went straight
to Surya Narayanji’s Jeeva Samadhi. After meditating at his Samadhi, we went
into the nearby home where we went upstairs after seeking permission from the
house owner to visit the room he had left his body. It is said that the day he
left his body here, there was thunder and lighting and the trees cried. There is some strange connection between
Surya Narayan ji and Amma, noone knows what. Then something very unusual
happened. Just as we were coming down from the room, the house owner said Amma
is come. I looked out of the door and spotted her standing outside. We hurried
out and fell at her feet again. So, what we heard was true. She was supposed to
have sat in auto with a person and rushed off somewhere. She had come here. I
hoped the foreigners, who had eagerly waited on that cross road would have met
Amma. We stood there for a while. Amma had just alighted from the auto and was
standing out for a while. Seeing that we had gathered around her as a group, we
took the opportunity to click a ‘group’ photo :)
Amma turning to look at the lady of the house where Siddha Surya Narayanji lived. |
After standing out of
the auto for five minutes, before people began moving towards her, she again went and sat inside the auto. The auto guy
turned back to look at her and she raised her hand indicating him to leave and
the auto reversed and soon sped off. I was literally amazed at this gesture of
Amma. We were guided to drop the second bag of rice at Surya Narayan ji’s
place. The lady of the home, who had
herself come out running to meet Amma, told us happily that Surya Narayan ji
and Amma often played such leelas.
Amma's Samadhi Temple |
Amma's earlier images that adorned her Samadhi Temple walls |
There were two very jovial photos
that added beauty to the temple and one large painting of Amma sitting on a
rock at the seashore at a much younger age. I just could not understand all
this. I was told that this is going to be her Samadhi temple! Just then, Amma arrived in the same auto with
the other two people with her, who were the devotees who were arranging the
food and had built the temple.
Amma walked around freely on the hot sand and
deserted road beside the beach. We
stared at her as she stared back at us as she walked around the temple as
though supervising the entire thing.
Amma strolling on the road while we were at the beach |
We
then sat in the temple for a while and it was about 1:10 p.m. when we got up to take leave from the
priest. He offered us Prasad and said
that there was lunch at 1:30 but we
said that we have to go far. He smiled
and gave us Prasad but then something struck me as though it was Amma herself
who mentioned us for the lunch. Why else would we have come there at that hour
and that too on that day when they served it? Suddenly, changing mind I told
her that we would wait for lunch to which he was pleased. We then decided to spend the 20 minutes at
the beach. We played in the water, sat on the rocks, admired the nature,
clicked photographs, laughed, played, joked and had fun, while at a distance
Amma was often seen to come have a look at us and go. At 1:30 p.m. we went into the temple and the priest served us
the food, while we saw people queued up for food at a little distance. The
priest gave us food separately in the temple which we had with great delight.
Washing and keeping the plates we enquired about Amma and were told she was
lying down at the neighboring house. We
went there and she was royally lying down in her own glory there. We touched
her feet as a gesture of taking leave. I
heartily thanked the Mother for all her love and blessings with all her
unbelieveable plays and walked out of the open verandah of the house when I met
the person who assisted her in the auto.
Amma sitting at the open verandah |
Amma in her favourite resting position |
Then, we proceeded to meet Achar
Baba in Quilandy. But something even more wonderful to mention about Amma is
that after I returned back and was boarding a bus to go back to where I was
staying, I received an email from my dear friend Vikas from UAE, who was from
the place of Amma (Talacheri) and knew Amma and her leelas. He had written to
me after I had published the earlier meeting with Amma, telling me more details
about her, which I have mentioned in that post (read).
This time he sent me what was to him a “latest photo of Amma”. When I opened
the image, I was literally shocked for it was the photo of that foreigner girl
meeting Amma! Somebody had updated him on this image from Thalacheri and he right away forwarded it to me.
The picture is the best picture i have seen of Amma with such profound deep connectivity with this girl. Immediately the moments I had talked with the
girl flashed in my mind and I was awed at the past life connections that we all
share with each other and how nature finds the opportunity to bring it together
for the appropriate needful experience. Am sure she would be glad to read this article, if she does :)
Amma and her child sharing precious moments |
Soon, we reached Achar Baba’s
place and had his darshan. He was sitting among the stinking food, just like
the last two times I had met him, the last meeting being 3 years back. Back
then, the experiences here were wonderful (read).
Right in the center is visible Achar Baba sitting in his shed in the same position without sleep for decades |
Not many, come here because of the state in which they wish to remain. He sat
there, dirty with one dirty piece of cloth wrapped around his waist with an
unkempt beard but a glowing face, deeply engrossed mumbling something to
himself. He did not like anyone touching
him and moved promptly back if anyone did, sometimes even abusing badly enough
to send the person away dejected and confused. For more than half hour he was
with himself and some tried to talk to him and get his attention but to no
avail.
The person who took care of him was sitting besides me and he was the
person who had told me last time everything about Baba and the working of the
Gurumandala, which was fully astonished as to how an illiterate person knew so
much, so accurately. This I was later told was that it was not he who speaks
but Baba’s ways of communication. This was proved again this time. We sat with
eyes closed and just meditated for quite a while. I was noticing that whatever
thoughts were moving through my mind, his slow mumbling had those words in it.
However hard I tried to understand it, it seemed impossible because of the
rapid speed of the mumbling in Hindi that he was going on with. We clicked some
photos of Baba, who looked very lean this time. I asked the serving man why was
he looking so lean to which he promptly answered that Baba seemed to be eating
very less since few months and that he had motions from past few days. He
continued, “For the past few months, he has reduced his intakes and so have
people coming there reduced, which looks like the karmic meetings with those
whom he had to finish up with is coming to an end.” I was amazed at his quick
reply, but then listened without judging. He asked me to come over to see
something in the shed that the man lived behind this place where Baba sat.
After walking behind him, I saw that he was showing me a temple the man had
made out of agarbathi (incense sticks) packets that were offered to Baba. I
clicked a few pictures of this temple, which I strongly believed was more than
what was seen, especially since it came from the packets that were offered to
Baba. I showed the pictures to others and we chatted a while because Baba was
still engrossed in his own world. At that time, the serving man asked us if we
needed some hot water. Offering hot water is common in Kerala. I refused. He
again asked and others refused. When he asked for the third time if we would
like to have a little, I did not want to take his words for granted, and
suggested that we all go take the water. From a small alumininium pot over the
chullah, the man dipped a steel glass and fetched hot water, which we turn by
turn took and the man looked contended.
Photo of Achar Baba many years back |
During Achar Baba's earlier years in Quilandy |
Achar Baba's most recent photo of this visit |
Some obliged to him, some ran away. To some, there was
no entry there and they were warned to sit at the railway tracks or the road
besides it on the other side, but not to cross over from there to this place
where he was sitting. Baba was totally unpredictable. Unpredictable to us, but
he knew very well what he was doing and it all had meanings in depth. People
often offered him food and sat there waiting for him to eat, some cried to him
with their problems and some just visited him out of love. While all this conversation
was going on, I saw a muslim couple had been sitting there for a long time and
the husband was only holding on to the wooden support of the shed and staring
at Baba continuously as though a lover stares at his lover in total engrossment
and delight. He had this intense feel of love flowing through him on his face.
I thought how blessed are these people who are blessed with the bhaav
(emotions) of such intensity, even though being from a diverse religion. It
only indicated some beautiful life-changing miracle that must have happened in
the devotee’s life by Baba. I sat there,
often connecting to my Baba (Baba Shivanand, my guru) due to whose grace we
were even able to come there. How beautiful the feeling of oneness of all the great saints and
masters were I cannot mention. The man then brought me more photos of Baba’s
earlier days, which we took a snap of and which was an indication to me that it
should be shared to all.
Then, we decided to leave but
then it would not be possible without his permission. Before we could speak,
the muslim man went to Baba and said they wanted to leave to which Baba said
clearly “2 minutes” and indicated that he sit down, which he promptly obeyed.
We asked Baba if we could leave and he said “Jao, Jao” (go, go) and we were
relieved to hear his permission. As each
bowed before him, he had different expressions and different emotions and words
and it’s pace. As I bowed before him, I
could clearly hear a few words in Hindi he said to me. I was delighted by
knowing that he knows it all, and so what if he mumbles.
Then taking leave of the man
serving him and offering him the bag of rice, we left the place, totally happy
with this beautiful day’s events. We were also happy to note that it was good
we had food at Amma’s Samadhi Temple ,
because there was no good food available in the stretch of this highway, since
almost all hotels serve nonveg food.
Bade Baba's childhood place; the Surya Narayan Temple |
Just a little distance from Achar Baba's place is the place of Ishwar Nair, the one who brought up Bhagwan Nityananda, the house where He was named as Rama, and where he spent most of His childhood years, the place where He gave his foster father the vision of Surya Narayan before death as was his final wish. The jungle where Bade Baba was found also is in this area. More details of this place is in a previous blog post. (read)
Before going back to Kanhangad, we
also stopped in Vadagara at the Jeeva Samadhi of Shivananda Paramahamsa, a
great master, whose many disciples also took Jeeva Samadhi in this ashram
premises.
Jeeva Samadhi of Siddha Shivanand Paramahamsa in Vadagara, Kerala |
They follow a very rigid and disciplined lifestyle but fully trained
in mastering the senses and their bodies by vitalizing the prana. It was a long
time desire fulfilled as we visited this Samadhi. Swami Shivananda Paramahamsa
was during the time of Bhagwan Nityananda and they often met and he took Jeeva
Samadhi in Palani, and his body was brought here. Very powerful place it was. As we left an
elderly Swami spoke to us kindly about all their lifestyle and processes. We
took leave of him and left the place. I was reminded of Mohan Swami, the first
ever Yogi I met in my life and had to the privilege to stay with and learn (read). This divine person had a strange connection
with the lineage of Bhagwan Nityananda, which I came to know later after meeting him a couple of times. He is a yogi fully in control of himself and still
lives in Sogal at the place of many Jeeva Samadhis, alone. He is a very silent
person and was the favourite of Govind Swami (direct disciple of Bhagwan
Nityananda) whose Samadhi is in Ganeshpuri.
Mohan Swami loved me and used to spare his time for me whenever I visited him in his hut on that hill in Sogal, Belgaum ,
and he was the first person I was blessed with to understand spirituality and
it’s nondual element. Two years back, a Nityananda devotee from USA, Kris, was staying at Anandashram, Belgaum when even i was staying there for few days. When i was leaving back home, Kris had come to drop me at a bustand in Bailhongal. On the way to the bus stand, I was speaking to him highly
of Mohan Swami. Reaching the bus stand, i got off the car and boarded the bus and the very next moment i sat at the window
seat all of a sudden I saw Mohan Swami standing outside on the street. So
stunned I was that no words came out of my mouth and the bus left. Later when i met him once and told him about the same, he only smiled.
So, this Jeeva Samadhi at Vadagara, was of his Guru’s and this was the same ashram he was trained in. From there we moved back, halting at Kannur, to have dinner and move ahead to Kanhangad ashram. We were back at the abode of Bhagwan Nityananda by10 p.m.
fully relishing this priceless trip meeting two blessed beings and two Jeeva
Samadhis. We hopped into bed and the next day was our final day of the trip,
which we had planned to Guruvan. Next day, passed with us going to Padiyar
Swami’s house and then going to Guruvan where we spent the whole day in that
forest in the company of Swami Vidyananda. The details of these places and
people are there in my earliest trips. I hurriedly noted down every detail of
this trip so as to not miss anything from memory and wish that it be shared, of
course, with His wish and for the pure benefit of all. This is a one-shot typing of events, which am not bothering to go back and correct, so kindly excuse the errors if any.
So, this Jeeva Samadhi at Vadagara, was of his Guru’s and this was the same ashram he was trained in. From there we moved back, halting at Kannur, to have dinner and move ahead to Kanhangad ashram. We were back at the abode of Bhagwan Nityananda by
At His service, in Gratitude
Divine Love and Light
Below is the video of an episode made on Amma on Asianet Malayalam
Sharing the video of the earlier trip that has some stills
and video clips of Amma and Achar Baba
Below is the video of an episode made on Amma on Asianet Malayalam